Happy New Year... Hope everyone had a great new years eve...

This might help me out a little to get things off my chest. Exactly one year ago today I got some of the most disturbing and bad news you could get. One of my closest friends, who was like a brother to me passed away. It was nothing that anyone seen coming and still to this day I do not know the exact reason that he is no longer with us. There are so many things that I think of about how it happened and some of them are not good thoughts like if someone poisoned them and I found out there would be big problems to face, I like to think it was not the case as i'm not 100% sure.. Now I like to think positive and know he was taking from us for a good reason its just hard to explain when a 25 yr. old with a little baby girl gets taken from us and I don't know why. Well as I type this and have so many thoughts going thru my head I just know that I will get thru the day, it may be a real tough day but i'm strong and will think of all the good things we use to do. I am not to good at expressing myself verbally as it tends to build up inside me, lets just hope that someone does not tick me off as i'm sure my fuse will be very short. Well as I sit here thinking about it and how hard a day its going to be for me, hopefully with me getting some of it off my chest it will ease some of the pain. RIP Joel.. 2/2/80- 12/12/05

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Current Mood: depressed

Ok so for my first post where or should I say how do I start this. Well i'm on line pretty often so figured why not write a blog about stuff going on in my world also where others can read and leave me comments whether they be positive or negative I welcome them all. I know some people on here so it makes it a little easier, and look forward to meeting some new guys. I will try and post every couple of days and as i'm sure like some people there will be times when i'll be a total post whore but that's natural.

Thanks for reading and say hello if you do read it. I'm always up for meeting new people.